this blog has gotten buried deep under my massive to-do list. sorry about that.

i am resurrecting it just to say this: i am ready to go home. well, for the moment. no one really likes to ever admit that, but there’s no point in pretending like everything is always well and good living away from home. i suppose it’s just a combination of the holiday season, good friends leaving, getting my heart broken a little… yeah. that’ll do it.

thankfully i will be stealing away for a couple days to shanghai for christmas. can’t wait to see old friends and catch up with a city that feels much more like mine. hopefully i’ll be able to come back refreshed and ready for 2010. 2010! isn’t that crazy?

i miss sunshine and flip flops in the winter. i miss in n out and mexican food. i miss my bed, the sweetgum leaves outside my window, carpeting, open kitchens. i miss driving and late nights and doing nothing at friends’ houses. i miss people. people who are there when it hurts and people who can tell me i’m out of my mind. and i miss being that person, for others, too.

china can be a little draining on the soul but i am going to be just fine… just give me a couple weeks to get myself back together.